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Frustrated

“Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in his ways.

You will eat the fruit of your labors, blessing and prosperity will be yours.

Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your home. Your sons will be like olive shoots around your table.

Thus is the man blessed who fears the Lord.” Psalm 128

 

May I share with you my frustration?

I have been married for 6 years, and have a 1 year old son. My wife is beautiful, intelligent, thought provoking, selfless and loving. My son is strong, hilarious, observant and listens intently.  However, I consistently fail as a husband.

I am so frustrated. Frustrated with the sinful life I can’t shed. The small decisions I make act like a small stone thrown into a calm lake. The ripples travel much farther than I ever expected.

Reading through Pslams, David teaches us that even he–a leader, a warrior, future King, suffered the same feelings many of us feel today. For husbands like myself dealing with the heaviness of leading a home, please spend time studying Pslams 128.

Psalms 128 brought me to my knees. The idea that a man who fears the Lord will receive blessing, prosperity, a wife who is like a fruitful vine in the home, and children who gather around the kitchen table to eat, is such a beautiful image we all desire.

So how do we as men fear the Lord? What does scripture tell us? I won’t share this with you in this write up–rather an encouragement for you men to go open the word and discover this on your own.

I am so frustrated. I am a hypocrite. I am fallen. I am also a father, a husband, a leader. I pray that God will use this broken piece of pottery to further his kingdom within my home and beyond. I am thankful for the forgiveness we receive from Jesus Christ–because without it I would feel empty and hopeless.

Lord this is my prayer, that I can learn to fear you. That I may learn from my errors and learn from my mistakes. I ask to be humbled in front of you and other Christ following men. Though I deserve nothing from you, you have offered to help me. Lord teach me to fear you! I long for a wife who is fruitful within my home. I long for my son to be raised knowing his earthly father seeks his heavenly Father. 

 

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Why We Pray

Have you ever thought to yourself, “why do people pray?”. I believe its a valid question. If God is all knowing, all powerful, then whats the point? Doesn’t God already know what we would pray about? Doesn’t the bible say that God’s intentions for us are for good?

Growing up, prayer for me was something I had to participate in before I was able to eat my dinner. I was required to sit patiently at the dinner table until everyone took theirs seats (mom, dad, and my two sisters) then we would all bow our heads and my dad would pray over our food. I was always amused that God was this ever powerful, super natural being, but he was concerned over our food…seemed a bit odd to me.

What are your early memories of prayer? What emotion did it spark for you?